I went to bed last night with thoughts of wonder, and excitement and I woke up this morning with thoughts of fear and confusion. I am not sure if this is a natural process, I expected some doubt but not to see it within 24 hours of coming up with this idea. How do you leave the life you have built to just walk? No plan on what to do after that walk is done, and I will admit that is also part of the wonder of this plan. What do you do with your life after you have given it all up? Do you just cross your fingers and hope that something just falls in to your lap, or maybe after walking 16,000 odd Kilometers you would come up with a magical plan.
We figure that to do this trip we would have to sell everything, our house, cars, furniture, everything. We would quit our jobs and leave all comforts of civilization to embark on this “trip of a life time”, how do you fit back into the world again after experiencing everything we will see and do? I am still going to continue with planning and see what happens, I hope this fear subsides and the deep excitement returns. I have ordered some books about each Province’s Trans Canada Trails, I hope reading them will spark that flame.
I have come to a crucial point in my life where I have realized that I have been coasting through, rather then fully living my life. I have always been that person that does the right thing, went to school, got a good job, got married, bought a house and now thinking about kids. But there is something inside me saying….you need something more. I have a wonderful wife, who I love to the ends of the earth and I know she needs more too.
I had a moment today where I thought about how great it would be to travel, with no worry about returning in a week to go back to work. Then I thought about how I haven’t really seen much of my own country of Canada, and how amazing this country is. I did a bit of research and I found a story about a man who has traveled across Canada on the Trans Canada Trail, and I thought about how amazing of a trip that would be. He was the first person to do this trip and I would like my wife and I to be the first women.
You don’t hear much of women trying these adventures, I want to show everyone, especially young girls that we can accomplish anything we set our minds to. This trip excites me to the core, pure excitement that I have never felt before. This is the life I am meant to lead, I just have to figure out how it can be done.
There is so much to be done to even figure out if this can be a possibility, but as the old saying goes…if there is a will there is a way.